When I was a kid....and now ?

After a long time, im kinda writing a blog..! 

Today, I'm remembering some of the most ravishing memories which I would like to write down.!!

Okay, the most old and the most antique memory which I can remember is that when I was a kid, once I had imitated a "chakka" AKA a "hermaphrodite". That was the most funny thing I ever did, and fortunately that "mawoman" ( I cudnt think of any other word ... lol..so man as well as woman...a "mawoman") didn't mind me doing that, and just blessed me and went away..!!! (:
Cant never forget that day, maybe I was just 5 yrs old at that time..!! hahhaahaha.!!
So coming to the MAIN POINT....
When we are kids, we dont know anything else except our lil sweet home sweet home and our parents and our thoughts that twirl round and round in our imaginative world. 

When I was a kid, I never had bad thoughts about people...I was naive..

When I was a kid, I dreamed a lot which was fictional...!!

When I was a kid, I didn't even know what the word "TENSION" or "DEPRESSED" meant..! 

When I was a kid, I never used to bother what people thought about me, because I was so busy living in my own world full of joy, laughter and happiness..!!! The only thing that made me sad was when mom used to forcefully make me eat something I didn't like...! ;)
When I was a kid, I had sooo many weird thoughts, Oh which I still have..!! lol

So.....when I was a kid, I wondered the most common thing that all kids usually end up thinkin and that is " Where did I come from ?" hahaahahhaha.>!! I used to believe that whenever I swallowed a piece of gum, maybe a tree would grow and come out of my ears and nose and mouth.!! It used to scare me....!! LOL
When I was a kid, I was afraid of ghosts.!! O.O 

Once, when my mom and dad went out to leave my sister to school, I was sleeping. And then, after a while I got up and searched the whole house for everyone.... but there was no one..!! I got sooo afraid that I sat by the window screaming at the top of my voice, and crying out loud ..!!! And when my mom came home, she hugged me holdin me tight..sayin that everything was alright.! :) These small small things form a big bunch of memories which we can never erase from our mind and our hearts..!

When I was a kid, I was a hardcore believer of GOD.!! I had so much faith in him and now that I'm grown into a teenager, I have tangled myself so much in the material world, that I dont even    pray to god...!!

As a child, I had an undisturbed and deep sleep...when I used to sleep, I used to forget the world and it was like I was in some other world..! But now when I try to sleep, so many thoughts gush in my mind that I can't even sleep peacefully.
A small child's mind is filled with all the innocence in the world, but a grown up's mind is filled with all the shitt in the world.!!
Why can't we be like a child filled with happiness and innocence and pure thoughts and pure feelings.... why do we always have to look whats hapenning in others life..? why can't we be happy living our own life..? 

I wish to go back to those times of my life..... 

Its Hard To Put Words In Action..!

"Well done is better than well said." - Benjamin Franklin

My last blog was about clearing the mess I had created in my life,

and how I tried to run from the responsibilities I had,

and how I let my Parents down.

Well when I was writing that blog, I knew I had erred in some of the issues, 

so I tried to make things right just by writing about it.

 After finishing that blog, my thoughts and what all I had written just faded away along with time, and once again I started being the same person I was before.

I started wasting my time - watching TV for unlimited period, started chatting more often on Facebook,hanging around with friends all the time, keep on texting my friends all the time. 

And then, I was totally lost in my own world again forgetting all the mistakes I did before, which I didn't wanna repeat again. So today, again I re-read that blog of mine and just took a pause to think.! After thinking a lot, I came up with this conclusion that everything we say or write, we never put it in action. At that moment we just wanna prove that we can do everything, but we don't.!! Its really hard to do what you say. 

Oh believe me, it needs a lot of Concentration and that zest..!!!  

Lets see, where do I reach with my promises that I've made.....I will need lot of efforts to become something in life..! Now I know, that what I need to come up with, to fulfill everything that I ever wrote................

Clearing The Mess...!!

Having FOCUS in life is such an important thing....!!!
Till date, everything I did was keeping a view in my mind that "Life Is To Enjoy: So Live To The Fullest". Obviously it is true, but it applies after you have done something meaningful in life...and that you have completed your aim. ( I know, me telling something like this obviously ...surprising..)

After giving the First Attempt to Common Proficiency Test (CPT), an entrance for Chartered Accountant, now I realize that I did such a Big Mistake of My Life by screwing it up..!! I took it soo lightly and didn't even study 50% of the portion.>!!! I feel ashamed of myself...!! 
Screwing CPT is the second baddest thing, but I let my PARENTS DOWN..!!! That was the worst thing I did.>!! 
I mean...they literally had HOPES, that their daughter is going to make them feel PROUD..!!! But i ended up in CRAP..!!!
But still, I will take this POSITIVELY..!! But won't loose another chance of meeting the expectations of my Parents..!! <3 <3 <3


My Ambition is not to become a Chartered Accountant..Im doing it just for a Financial Support in Future..!!My AIM, My AMBITION, My PASSION is one and only one thing and that is "RIDE WITH THE NATURE"But in this world of Rat Race..and people stepping on each other to reach HIGH.. it wont be possible for me to go and just walk in some land covered with green pastures at the other end of the World..!!! So its obvious that i need a Financial Support to make this happen..!! And for that I need to Study Hard..!!
I know...4 years from now, my parents are gonna be the Proudest Parents..!! I am not gonna let them down..!!



I Believe...I Believe..I Can Be Something In Life..!!

I Believe..I Will Make My Parents Proud..!!

I Believe..that God Is There With The One's Who Help Themselves.>!I Believe..That Day Is Not Far..When I Will Look Back At This Time And Tell To Myself.."I Chose The Right Way" :) And Will Never Ever REGRET...!!!

I BELIEVE.................................................

World, As I See It..! :)

Every morning, I get up and things seem to be different then the other day..
Finishing all my chores ( lol my chores include- get up at 8:00 am , go hit the shower, waste my time in findin something worth to wear,  :p comb my hair, and just wait for mom to give breakfast..! :p )
Then comes the time to go to Work ( yesh i am just 18 ..! but still itz vacction time so i decided to join at a Chartered Accountant Firm )
When my sis leaves me on bike to the station, I just walk in my own thoughts thinking about weird things like -
For instance, Why are the Railway Platforms always flat.. lol..why cant it be like a mountain on which i can hop like  frog and go.! :p hahahhahahahahha..!
OR
Why do people stare when you wear something which is your favourite ?( in my case , it may be the weirdest outfit ever.! Which soothes me out..and which makes me more confident ) 
Sometimes, I keep on wondering...............
When are the aliens gonna come on earth and take me away on a trip to Mars or Venus or any other planet.! :p 
When i hear Owl City Songs...it always makes me wonder-  " Oh Boy..!! this guy surely does know the other world and izz friends with the ALIENS.>! Jeezzz when am i gonna get to visit like him? xD
On the other side, I get this Deja Vu ..........that i have seen this before... or things like this are turning out to happen again,.! WEIRD..!  
uhhhmmmm.>!!!! blah blah blah blahhh>>>!!
oooh sorry... i was tired writing... so juzz thought blah blahh would help..! xD :p
Other things will be following in other blog.! :p 
Astalavista..! :)

My Existence

How do i know...
Who am i..?
I search for myself.. in this busy world..!
Does my existence matter to me.?
I am still searching...for i know...
I will one day acheive him...The Ultimate...!
and my search for me will be complete.>!